i was telling pacar, that how meaningless working life is.

heard my colleagues/superior's conversation today over lunch... about who kenna who shoot, who kenna who scold again... actually its the same topics every day over and over again...

i was thinking to meself... is this the life i want to lead?

when you're an employee.. no matter how high you are, there will be someone higher and you will still be scolded by someone up there.

so u seek to climb higher.

but there's ALWAYS someone higher still!

how many years would it take you to reach the top of the tops?

so no matter what you still have to tahan people's face colour.

not for one day, 2 days, not for 1 week, nor for 5 years.

as long as you're working!

how sad is that?

you know, i used to think that i can NEVER do sales.

because i HATE to be pretencious and serve people even though i'm cursing them at the back of my head.

but thinking back, i really prefer my sales jobs over my TTSH internship and of course what i'm doing now.

at least i look forward to working at Food Expo, though it was so tiring i fell sick during the short 5-day job.

but of course its a totally different thing with greater responsibilities and of course more money.

maybe it'll get better along the way... i still remember i used to dread going to Far East everyday because i'll be bored to tears.

i'm not saying all these because i'm terribly unhappy at work.. in fact, work is pretty fine now. that's cause i'm doing nothing.
i'm sorta getting more and more used to doing nothing.
maybe that's why its getting better.

but then again, is this the life i really want to lead???

for the rest of my life, no matter how long or short it's going to be?

80% of the staff in my dept has been with the company for > 10 years.

will i be like them?

IS THIS WHAT I, OR YOU, WANT?