i'm a mummy!

i am very fortunate and lucky to have again got pregnant in dec last year.. and this time my pregnancy went smoothly (tho accompanied with the usual morning sickness.. cramps.. water retention.. bloatedness.. PUPPP.. false alarm of DVT etc.. but i'm not complaining) fast foward time, i've delivered my dear baby boy on 4 Sep 2015!

so i'll be writing alot about my journey into motherhood together with my boy right here! I haven't decide if there would be any pictures up here, cause hubby doesn't like us to splash our family pictures everywhere on social media, so probably later bah. anyways this is just a place for me to pen and record my thoughts and feelings, before i lose all of them with my memory. =)

#random sometimes i look at my boy, and i feel so blessed all over. this is the little one that has been growing inside me since day one, and he's all fine and healthy sleeping beside me right now. life is so amazing isn't it?

my boy has been really well behaved so far.. doing the usual things - eat, sheet, sleep, sometimes all at the same time, sometimes some taking longer than usual; but generally he's been really manageable, except for a few cranky nights. i'm taking care of him together with hubby almost the whole time, with MIL doing confinement and helping out with stuff i can't do like bathing him (which he totally ABHORS for some reason!), and the other household chores like laundry, dishes, etc.

i thought i'll feel grouchy over the lack of sleep, or rather, continuous sleep, but no it was so much easier to deal with than i had imagined. cos you just take a look at this helpless one seeking your attention, and it just makes everything worth it. it's like he's asking for ME, exclusively ME. like none other can replace my role in his eyes (well cos he wants milk mah, but that's not the point :P). i think it's a mummy thing, but just staring at him alone makes my hormones run wild and i feel soo soo sooo much happiness and gratefulness to have him with me. 那种感觉，真的很美。 :) sometimes i wish time will standstill and he'll always need me this much. i'm already not looking forward to the days where he grows up and become independent and don't need his mama anymore. oh man, how do parents deal with this?! how does my parents deal with this? sobz.

i've just re-read my last post before i began on this post, and recalled how painful it was the last time. i don't think anything can make me forget the pain then.. and admitably it's something i don't really want to really revisit though i know it's still in me all the time. that said, it really makes me treasure what i have now even more. i don't and won't take Zhe Xi's arrival for granted, and moreover his journey out of me wasn't exactly smooth. but i'm glad he's all safe and healthy now, and so am i. Zhe Xi, thanks for coming into mine and YW's life. i hope that we'll be great parents to you too. :) mummy loves u.. so much!